Saturday, March 31, 2012
I can't believe it's Saturday. When you don't leave the house much it seems like the calendar and specifically what day of the week it is doesn't really matter that much. To most families the weekends mean that the family will be together more but my children are both in college. They work on the weekends so they are not home then either. They are home on Sundays so that is our day to worship the Lord & spend time together.
However, I have learned to cherish everyday. Charlie has been helping my Dad this week with a project so he hasn't been at home, and it feels like things are somewhat back to normal. He'll probably be helping him for the next week or so and I hope that we'll be able to establish some sort of routine. With both of not working and just being at home all day, every day it has kind of worn on both of our nerves.
In 2008 I had the opportunity to be at home for about 9 months. During that time Charlie worked from daylight to dark so I didn't see him very much. We had so many financial obligations that he had to work as much as possible so we could pay our bills. Fast forward to 2011, we were both working and had very good paying jobs but we decided to downsize. We got rid of our house, and yes, I say it that way because it was such a burden. It was a money pit! We have a smaller vehicle. Yes, it is a little Ford Ranger and only fits the 2 of us but that is all we need. The kids both have vehicles so why do we need a gas hog? Our bills are down to our rent, insurance, and utilities. We don't have any debt. God has been good to us. He saw our future and what we thought last year was horrible turned out to be a huge blessing.
Last October we were on vacation with my Mom & Dad and we were talking about where we saw ourselves in 5 years. Charlie is 40 now and I'm not far behind. I remember telling them then that I'd like to be a stay at home wife. That it might seem old-fashioned but that I'd like to be able to take care of Charlie by keeping the house, his clothes, and making sure a meal was on the table when he got home from work. We'd like to build a house; something small just enough for the two of us and room for future grandchildren to play. Maybe have our own business. Little did I know that less than 30 days later I'd be given my separation notice. It never crossed our mind that in January Charlie would receive his separation notice too. What our plans for 5 years were in October haven't really changed much. God has just given us a different path to get there. In reality it may not take as long to acquire the things we wanted to. What we thought would come last, the opportunity of owning our own business, has actually come first.
Charlie is trying to start a new business. It's a slow process because we didn't have money in savings. We do have a couple of loans (money we loaned out when we had it) coming due and we hope to use that to help start his business. Right now Charlie is getting the necessary licensing and insurance. Once we receive the paybacks we hope to buy him a work van. He already has a couple of companies lined up that will supply him work once he is licensed and insured. Like I said, it's just a slow process.
People laugh when he tells them I am a stay at home wife, but I don't care. My house is clean, our laundry is done, I'm able to help others when asked, and I'm here when my kids need me. Even though they are adults themselves they still need their Mother! You'd be surprised the talks we've had on Tuesday mornings or Thursday afternoons that otherwise we wouldn't have had if I'd been at work. I'm thankful that God has given us everything that we need. Our bills are paid, and we have food in the pantry.
I find happiness and peace from the beauty that God creates like the flowers above. If God can take care of them and bring them back every year then why can't he take care of me? What more could we ask for?