Tuesday, February 17, 2009

You don't appreciate what you have

Until you don't have it anymore.

I never thought that I would say this, but I miss being just a housewife. I didn't work outside the home for almost 9 months last year. Financially it was extremely hard. Our outgoing was more than our incoming almost every month. The stress of paying the bills was almost more than I could handle, and it was definitely more than Charlie could handle. We didn't have a lost of extras. Any discretionary expenses were cut down to almost nothing. Then you think about those things that we did have. The house was always clean. The laundry was always done. Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner were made by ME! I felt more of a sense of accomplishment doing those things than I have ever felt working in a 9-5 job, even when I made 6 figures!

So, now we have money to pay our bills, and we can go out to eat every once in a while, but I miss being at home. I miss being there when my kids needed me or Charlie needed me. I miss sewing, cooking, and Yes, even cleaning! We may not ever be to the place where I could stay at home without any income, but I will say that it was an experience that I'll never forget.

I envy those of you who are SAHM, and home school your children. I don't envy you, as some do, because "you don't have to work", we all know that is not true! I envy you because your work is so much more rewarding than just a paycheck!

Some say well, Krista, you can have it all! You can work, keep a clean house, have the laundry done, cook supper, and be there for your husband & kids when they need you. I say, "Do I look like SuperWoman?" My house is clean, we have clean clothes to wear, and I cook supper, but it just doesn't feel the same, and I am always tired! Now it just feels like I have 2 jobs.

Oh well, the moral of the story is...Be happy with what God gives you. If you are always unsatisfied then you'll always be looking for more. Sometimes you are right where God wants you, and doing what God wants you to do. It may not be what you want, but it is what God wants. Charlie & I have talked and we are going to try to pay off our debt with my earnings. That may take years... Who knows maybe I'll be a Stay at Home Grandma or Aunt! I wouldn't mind being either one because I love babies so I'll leave you with the newest pics of Baby Isaac! These were just taken on Sunday. He is in the 90th percentile for both weight and height. He is 17 lbs and 26 inches long! He'll be 4 months old on Feb. 22, 2009.


Mari said...

I know just what you mean. I work 4 days a week and I miss being there for my family and friends at times too.
Isaac is getting so big - so cute too!

Valerie said...

oh he is so cute. Is he sitting up? I can't believe how he has grown. I understand how you feel. There is a Bible verse on my post. Psalm 37:4 He will give you the desires of your heart. Work hard, get rid of the debt, sacrifice and go visit Daveramsey.com- It really works!Do the baby steps. His ministry is such a blessing.

Krista said...

Isaac can't really sit up by himself, but with a little help he can. He loves it! When you hold him he doesn't even like to lay down. He wants to turn around and look at everybody.

Jen said...

Well you are right. God has us all where he wants us. I know how you feel. Before I stayed home I felt this way....We teach Dave Ramsey....every Sunday night. if you need any pointers on debt let me know...you may want to take class if one is offered close to you...not only to get out of debt but to manage $$$.

Heidi @ GGIP said...

What a cute baby! I think you are getting a good attitude about the Working/SAH Mom thing. One isn't better or worse than the other, they just are.